What am I doing wrong?

 Like I mentioned before, I watched a lot of you tube videos in the beginning.  I watched Bunny Berry but, she really didn’t have a lot of recipes.  I started watching Dan the Man.  The Life Regenerator.  I started watching him because he had a really good salsa recipe and he’s so passionate about raw vegan.  The first night I made supper it was actually Dan’s salsa with zucchini and cucumber chips.  He talks a lot about eating watery fruit in the morning and then working your way up to veggies throughout the day.    It works for him.  I only watched a few videos by this time as well.  I ate a whole watermelon for breakfast, then an orange, an apple, a cantaloupe… I just kept eating.  I couldn’t stop.  I was not satisfied.  I ate watery fruit and drank my Pepsi replacing water all day long.  Oh, and I went pee a lot.  I didn’t think I could stay on this.  I wasn’t feeling satisfied.  I made spinach salad for supper, cauliflower popcorn for after supper snack… Hang on I’ll eat some seed cheese.  I feel better… hmmm… Do I have to eat a lot of nuts and seed to feel full?  But Dan the Man said not to eat a lot of nuts.  But, I can’t just eat the fruit and veggies!!  I’m not full on them. Ever!  Ok, I guess I need to eat a lot of nuts and seeds.  I made a dehydrated bread to eat the seed cheese on.  I soaked almonds to snack on.  I ate pretty much nuts and veggies and a little bit of fruit the next day.  I felt fuller but I didn’t have a lot of energy at all… Ugh, maybe I’m not cut out for this… Maybe, I need to wait a little longer.  I started making stuff like raw veggie burgers in the dehydrator.  Raw veggie spaghetti sauce with walnut meatballs and raw zucchini noodles.  Marinated mushrooms and zucchini.  I ate “transition food” until the cows came home.  (Transition food- food usually high in nuts that mimics food that you eat on the SAD diet.  Ie. Raw spaghetti sauce with walnut meatballs and zucchini noodles.)  I was trying to go back to the feeling I had when I went for supper at Paul and Beate’s. 

I found out why Dan said not to eat a lot of nuts.  Nuts bung you up… If you don’t know what that means… They’re a lot like cheese.  Oh my goodness!!!!   Get me some plums!! This is terrible.  What am I doing wrong?  I started searching the internet again.  Carbs.  One simple word.  But it changed my life. 

You need carbs to feel full and also to fuel your body.  I was staying away from the carbs because in the SAD diet, carbs is a bad word.  What’s a carb in the raw vegan diet though?  A banana… A date...  A mango…   I made myself a “smoothie” in the magic bullet.  I threw in a banana, a date, and an apple.  Oh yeah, that’s the ticket.  I’m full…. Watch out, get out of my way!  I’m cleaning the house!!  Energy!!  Wonderful!  Carbs! Who would have guessed? Since I made this discovery, I start my day with a banana or two.  I might throw in some other fruit, but bananas are my staple food.  If I don’t have them around, I start to panic lol.  I don’t eat nuts everyday now and I certainly do not eat as much when I do as I did in those first few days.  They are still in my diet as they have their purpose.  I still watch Dan the Man’s videos.  He’s a great guy with a great message.  Anyone who spends that much time promoting a healthy lifestyle cannot be a bad person :)